It's been a while. Quite a while.
We've moved back to Florida in order to help my mom with her health and isolation. It's amazing how you can come from such a close church community and find yourself utterly alone when crisis hits, or when you can no longer do for others much less yourself.
I think that's why my hubby has such a hard time becoming a "member" of another church. It's happened to us so many times. We are accepted, good and fine, until tragedy strikes and we are no longer able to give of ourselves the way were were doing before. I'm talking time here, not tithes. There is a difference.
Families are no different for the most part. When they don't need you, or you have a desperate need for them - they kinda disappear between the cracks. My immediate family isn't that way. Our kiddos are there for us as much as we are for them - and we all understand when we can't just reach out and be there. One thing we can always say though, we are always there for emotional support.
That's what we are doing for momu. Emotional support. I'm not doing a very good job at it, been a rough decade for the Creach household. Wait. Been longer than a decade...nearly 15 years now. But, I'm doing my best. There is a lot to catch you up on - whoever "you" are. If anything, I'm doing what's desperately needed and getting some rambling thoughts out there into the open.
Ok. Time for this last year:
February a year ago drove momu out to Texas to see what she thought of it and if she would be happy moving out there with us.
End of February came back to Florida with momu and hubby for a visit and to get the ball rolling.
March we flew back to Texas with plans of moving mom to Texas
April mom can no longer tolerate the pain in her back and visits a spine doctor
May I come back to Florida to help mom through the treatments and start packing up her home
June decision is made that momu is unable to make the move and house is in no way ready for sales market - and she doesn't need to be alone any longer
July our best friend and his kids come out to Texas to help us make the move with 1 horse, 1 ferret, 1 dog, and 1 cat back to Florida to move in with Momu and restart the routine with Veterans appointments, spinal treatments, etc.
I'm sure stuff happened in between all this and January, but goodness if I can remember it all.
January Mom ends up in hospital with a serious infection coursing through her body and we nearly loose her. Back is getting worse, legs getting weaker. She's in over a week.
February it's more treatments and after our 31st wedding anniversary I head to Texas to help our son out with his daughter
May I come back to Florida, mom is in hospital as outpatient
June mom is in hospital for 5 days, son needs me back in Texas but I can't leave.
This time line doesn't even begin to add into it the difficulties and health issues my daughter or my hubby are having and as far as mine....well, lets say they are so far on the back burner that even the chickens can't find them. I do what we all do, put it off, ignore it, and move forward - right?!
I have had many revelations during this time, uhm, couple of mini breakdowns which no one witnessed, and made some beautiful memories.
Realized that some long time friends are more superficial than I could ever imagine, that others are more generous than any one I know - except to themselves and the adults they love, and I have found out the the Baptist Church isn't as loopy and freaky behind the times as I thought. Some are more in tune with the Spirit than most First Assembly's that I have belonged to.
Oh. I also lost my best friend and long time horse bud, Ivan. It was during the first May that I was gone before we decided make the new move back to Florida. I soon (by June) adopted my next bud and pal, Sky. He's a funny boy.
Well, so much for short blips. Now to go back and fill in spaces. HAH!!
I was a child chicken. just walking across cattle gaps set 4" above the ground or forbid - running water, took all the courage I could muster. Over the years I've crossed many cattle gaps, physically and mentally. This blog is mainly for myself to jot down my thoughts, put down the ghost stories my kids have asked for, document my journey with Pulmonary Hypertension. Most important it's for me to leave a tiny piece of who I am to this big ole world and shout "I want to live!!"
Our lives on a Tankful
...of oxygen that is! Actually, that isn't quite correct, as I only use oxygen at night - but many many of my phriends are hooked up to oxygen tanks, Intravenous (in the veins) or subcutaneous (under the skin) needle infused devices, huge supplies of medicines, ice chests to keep the medications cool and some of them are even bound to wheelchairs, walkers or worst yet -- bed.
We all have one thing in common - we have Pulmonary Hypertension. Pulmonary Hypertension is a rare, progressive and incurable disease that affects the pulmonary artery and the rest of the circulatory system. You'll learn more later :) In the meantime, this is a journal of my adventures since being diagnosed, the phriends I've met along the way and how we want to shout to the world "we may be small in numbers but we are mighty in heart and hope".
We all have one thing in common - we have Pulmonary Hypertension. Pulmonary Hypertension is a rare, progressive and incurable disease that affects the pulmonary artery and the rest of the circulatory system. You'll learn more later :) In the meantime, this is a journal of my adventures since being diagnosed, the phriends I've met along the way and how we want to shout to the world "we may be small in numbers but we are mighty in heart and hope".